WASHINGTON(AP)
He thinks of her every time he gazes at the painting _ a blazing
orange sun she drew a few years after the tragedy. It is the only
splash of color in his tiny K Street office and it gives him great
joy, and a stab of sorrow.
He thinks of her every time he plucks a new $5 bill from his
wallet and sees the large purple numeral emblazoned in the corner.
It reminds him of how he used to sort her money: $1 bills in one
envelope, fives and tens in others.
And of course he thought of her last month when a federal
appeals court ruled on a case that could result in the redesign of
the entire U.S. currency. It was one of the great legal victories
of 53-year-old attorney Jeffrey Lovitky's career, and he wishes
she could have been there to share it.
But had she been there, it might never have happened.
For the lawsuit filed on behalf of the American Council of the
Blind was never just about discrimination or changing the currency
so the blind can distinguish a $1 bill from a $20.
It was about a brilliant, gifted woman who changed so many
perceptions and overcame so many obstacles that those who knew her
never doubted her ability to continue inspiring enormous change,
even from the grave.
It was about the memory of a smile.
___
In his second-floor office, Lovitky sifts through a well-thumbed
photo album. "Here's a Sandy smile," he says,
plucking a picture from the page. "And here's one. And
this is truly a Sandy smile."
The pictures show a petite brunette nestling into his shoulder
under a cherry blossom tree, playfully pushing him in an oversized
beach wheelchair on the sand, clutching his arm at a black tie
event at which she was receiving yet another award.
His eyes mist at the memory _ Sandra Welner, the brilliant
physician whose dazzling smile and tenacious spirit stole
Lovitky's heart.
He found her after placing a personal ad in a Jewish newspaper _
or really, she found him. He remembers the letter she wrote in
response _ not the words, but the tone. She sounded so intelligent,
so lively, so interesting, and yet there was some obscure reference
to a disability.
"I really must meet this person," he thought.
Their first date was in an Irish pub in April 1994. She was
already seated when he arrived, and he felt an instant attraction
to the radiant young woman with the gentle brown eyes and tumble of
dark curls.
They talked for hours. She told him about her practice as a
gynecologist, running a clinic for women with disabilities; about
her parents _ Holocaust survivors from Poland who had created a new
life and family in Pittsburgh; about her travels all over Europe,
Australia and Israel.
But there were things she never mentioned in those first few
hours. He had no idea that she couldn't see his thinning hair
and clear blue eyes, that she could only barely make out the shape
of his face. Or that she had called the pub earlier to ask about
the menu, so she could pretend to read it when she ordered.
It was only when they were preparing to leave, when she stood
unsteadily and asked for help in getting a taxi, that he realized
that she had difficulty walking. She held out her arm. Grasping it,
he sensed they would be together for a long time.
Their dates were simple: walks in the park, petting horses at a
stables near her Silver Spring apartment, takeout Thai dinners and
occasional splurges on extravagant chocolate desserts at the
Willard Hotel. She discussed her medical cases. He told her about
his legal ones. Devoted news junkies, they often spent Saturday
nights by the computer, Lovitky reading aloud the big stories of
the day.
Gradually, he learned what had happened in those terrible days
back in 1987.
She was 30, already a leading expert on fertility and
women's reproductive health. She had a large circle of friends
and colleagues, a thriving career as a micro-surgeon and no
shortage of suitors.
Traveling alone on vacation in Europe, Welner fell ill _ so ill
that she checked herself into a hospital in Amsterdam. Her family
is not certain what happened next except that she went into cardiac
arrest and suffered a serious brain injury.
Welner's mother, Barbara, 81, still sobs at the shock of
seeing her comatose daughter in a foreign hospital. Even if she
survived, doctors said, she would be lucky to regain the ability of
a 2-year-old.
"NO!" the mother cried. Not my brilliant, beautiful
daughter, who could paint portraits that belonged in galleries, who
played the violin so exquisitely that she was offered music
scholarships in high school, who graduated from medical school at
the age of 22. This was a child who, at the age of 12, had begged
not to join a family vacation to Florida because she had enrolled
in college courses instead.
Now doctors were saying she should lock her away.
"Not my Sandy," the mother said.
And so, for 16 days in Amsterdam, she read medical journals and
newspapers and played classical music for her lifeless daughter.
She talked to her and caressed her _ anything to trigger a
response. She got none. "The doctors thought I was
delusional," she said.
Back in the United States, doctors offered the same grim
prognosis.
Again, the mother said no.
And so Barbara and Nick Welner took their child home to New
Haven, Conn. They read to her. They fed her. They bathed her. They
taught her to count, to swallow, to sit up. They cried with her.
Hour after hour, for days and months and years.
It wasn't a miracle, her mother says of her daughter's
steady, excruciating recovery. It came of a determination so
powerful that it burst from her broken body with a force that
nothing could hold back.
But there were moments that felt like miracles. The day Sandy
took her first tentative steps. The day a friend phoned from
Israel, where Sandy had worked, and she began speaking in fluent
Hebrew. She hadn't forgotten a word.
"I was in awe," her mother said.
Years later, as Lovitky heard these stories, he too was in awe.
But not just of the woman he had grown to love. He was also awed by
the older woman who became his dear friend.
"Sandy had such spirit and such courage," Lovitky
says, "but her mother did, too. Such effort, such
faith."
This was a woman who had fled the Warsaw ghetto with false
papers as a young girl, who with the help of the Red Cross found
her way to nursing school in England and eventually married a
fellow Polish refugee in the United States. Both husband and wife
had families who perished in concentration camps.
The Welners raised four children, two boys and two girls. But
Sandy was always the star. "There was just this sense that she
would accomplish extraordinary things," says her brother,
Michael Welner.
By the time Lovitky met her, Welner's vision was severely
damaged, her hands shook, and she walked with an unsteady gait. But
her speech and mind were clear. And her memory was better than
ever.
Lovitky marveled at her defiance. She refused to use a
wheelchair. Instead she would pile the chair with her medical books
and push it. Or she would use a cane.
She was dependent on others _ the stream of medical students she
paid to help her read, and write and file, on strangers to help her
catch a cab, or spend money. And yet, Lovitky says, "she was
more independent than anyone I knew."
She went skydiving in Australia, alone. She climbed _ inch by
inch _ the ancient historic site, Masada, overlooking the Dead Sea
in Israel.
When she eventually moved into her own apartment in Washington,
she insisted on cooking great Passover seders for her family.
"If Sandy wanted to do something, nothing was going to stop
her," Lovitky says.
But the hardest challenge she faced was professional _ being
accepted back into the medical world that had once embraced
her.
Dr. Alan Decherney, a leading gynecologist and obstetrician,
remembers the young woman with the cane shuffling into his office
at Yale University to ask for his help. In a residency, years
earlier, he had considered her smart and promising. Now she just
looked pitiful.
You can't go into practice, he told her, knowing how harsh
he sounded but trying to be honest. You are legally blind and you
are spastic.
But Welner pressed on. And something about her courage moved
Decherney to let her sit in with other residents and join him on
patient rounds.
She astounded him. This woman isn't just smart, Decherney
thought. She's brilliant.
"I had to tell her not to answer all the questions all the
time," Decherney said, chuckling.
For the rest of her life Welner called Decherney her hero. When
no one else in medicine would answer her calls, he made them on her
behalf. With Decherney's help she landed a job overseeing a
clinic for women with disabilities at Washington Hospital Center.
At the time, there were few resources for disabled women who wanted
to get pregnant.
"Doctors simply didn't want to deal with a woman in a
wheelchair who wanted to have a baby," said Trish Day, one of
Welner's first patients who became a close friend. "Sandy
didn't just understand the complications of a disabled
body," Day said. "She understood my dream."
A year and half later, after watching another surgeon perform an
emergency Caesarean section, Welner was the first person to hold
Day's newborn daughter, Diana. It was one of the proudest
moments of her career.
But Welner did far more than encourage her patients. She
designed and patented a special examination table for disabled
women _ lower and more maneuverable than the standard ones. She
lectured on the need for disabled woman to get regular
gynecological checkups and mammograms, something some avoid because
the equipment isn't adapted for them.
In a particularly sweet triumph, she returned to the nursing
home in Connecticut and lectured the doctors who had once declared
that she would function no better than a 2-year-old.
Then, in 1997, Welner's clinic was closed because of
cutbacks. She was devastated. And yet, Lovitky says, as she had so
often done, Welner accepted reality and moved on.
She hurled herself into her work _ applying for research grants,
writing a book on medical care for women with disabilities,
becoming a faculty member of Georgetown and Maryland University
medical centers, speaking at the United Nations, lecturing around
the country and the world.
Few knew that Welner's masterful hour-long PowerPoint
presentations were memorized by heart. She couldn't see her own
slides.
"She just never stopped," says Lovitky. He worried
sometimes about how hard Welner pushed herself, rarely getting more
than a few hours sleep a night.
And then, in an instant, everything stopped. It was Oct. 8, 2001
and the country was still reeling from the shock of the Sept. 11
attacks. Lovitky and Welner had talked about it by phone that
night. It was the last real conversation they ever had.
The call jolted him awake a few hours later. "There's
been an accident," said Welner's neighbor. "It's
serious."
Lovitky grabbed a Bible and raced to the hospital. Swathed in
bandages, a breathing tube in her throat, Sandy was barely
recognizable. She had third-degree burns over 70 percent of her
body. But she smiled and mouthed "I love you," and blew a
kiss.
She had been lighting a memorial candle for her late father,
when the flame caught her nightgown. The neighbor had broken down
her door and pulled her from the fire.
The next 13 days were blur of suffering and sadness as Lovitky
and Welner's mother and brother waited, willing Sandy to
survive, clinging to the belief that she might. After all, this was
Sandy _ invincible, irrepressible Sandy. She had come back from
near death once before. Surely she could again.
On Oct. 21, Lovitky whispered his last words to the woman with
whom he had planned to spend his life. He doesn't even know if
she heard.
She died 10 minutes later. She was 42.
___
In the months after Welner's death, Lovitky felt bewildered
by grief and regret. He couldn't work, couldn't eat,
couldn't sleep.
He went to Israel, trekked to all the most dangerous parts.
Family and friends feared he had a death wish. There were times he
wondered if he did.
At his darkest moment, Lovitky talked to his rabbi.
What can I do, he cried.
Do something good that will contribute to her memory, the rabbi
told him.
And then Lovitky remembered the envelopes, how he would sort
Sandy's money before she went on trips _ putting the $1 bills
in one envelope, the tens and twenties in others. He remembered her
frustration at having to trust strangers for the right change.
And he realized that there was something he could do _ something
that could both celebrate Welner's legacy and affect the lives
of millions. Elsewhere around the world, accommodations are made
for the blind _ different sized notes or tactile features such as
raised markings.
Why not the United States?
In May 2002, Lovitky sued the Treasury Department on behalf of
the American Council of the Blind, arguing that its failure to
design a currency that is accessible to blind people is a form of
discrimination.
In November 2006, the court ruled in favor of the Council.
"Plaintiffs have demonstrated that they lack meaningful
access to U.S. currency," Judge Judith W. Rogers wrote in the
ruling, which the U.S. Court of Appeals for the District of
Columbia Circuit upheld in May. "Even the most searching
tactile examination will reveal no difference between a $100 bill
and a $1 bill. The secretary has identified no reason that requires
paper currency to be uniform to the touch."
The Treasury Department, which argues that a redesign of the
currency would be too costly, has not said if it will fight the
latest ruling.
___
Lovitky visits Welner's grave several times a year _ when he
travels to Pittsburgh to visit her mother. They rarely talk about
the lawsuit, though they know Sandy would have been proud.
For his part, Lovitky says he feels a strange detachment about
the outcome. There is little of the personal satisfaction or pride
he has felt with other legal victories. He understands why. He
understands the long hours he poured into this case _ all the
research, all the briefs, all the consultations with other lawyers
_ was never really about winning. Or about money.
It was about commemorating the spirit of the rare and beautiful
woman who changed his life.
It was about love.
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